Diffident member of the online community

From the online dictionary Wiktionary

Adjective

diffident

1. Wanting confidence in others; distrustful.
2. Wanting confidence in one's self; distrustful of one's own powers; not self-reliant; timid; modest; bashful; characterized by modest reserve.

If you see the supreme irony in using Wiktionary to define a diffident blogger, then you get it all.

In the future perhaps I'll be able to illustrate how the dialectic of distrust and timidity drives me to whatever place I may have in the online community.